Sunday, February 17, 2008
Au revoir !
Ce blog sera fermé. J'entrerai dans une nouvelle vie bientôt. Son était tout tout à fait un voyage mais je ne manquerai jamais cette vieille vie. Pour toujours au revoir au vieux.
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Apologize
I am not appreciated, only taken for granted.
I am not entertained, only to be laugh at.
My peace is not thanked, only to be crashed.
My love is not held, only to be cut.
My care is not taken, only to be thrown.
Even the ones I've loved, never stop stabbing.
Things that are broken are not worth fixing
Too many let downs
Too many anger
Is hate the only answer?
Is the dark the only solace?
The old me is not more.
The apologize came too late.
I am not entertained, only to be laugh at.
My peace is not thanked, only to be crashed.
My love is not held, only to be cut.
My care is not taken, only to be thrown.
Even the ones I've loved, never stop stabbing.
Things that are broken are not worth fixing
Too many let downs
Too many anger
Is hate the only answer?
Is the dark the only solace?
The old me is not more.
The apologize came too late.
Friday, December 7, 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
After the banquet
I'm the best man. Dressed sharp, double breasted jacket. Felt power. ^snicker'
For the banquet, of the union of my brother and Sharon. Welcome to our family, it ain't perfect but its one of the best :)
Its an eye opener, organising and administrating. I'm drain. However the best part came from my mother's old friend: ' You are like your father'.
Its very touching, I wore my dad's tie for this special day, in my heart I felt that its a representation of my father's presence. For him to witness his son Johnson getting married to a remarkable woman Sharon.
For the banquet, of the union of my brother and Sharon. Welcome to our family, it ain't perfect but its one of the best :)
Its an eye opener, organising and administrating. I'm drain. However the best part came from my mother's old friend: ' You are like your father'.
Its very touching, I wore my dad's tie for this special day, in my heart I felt that its a representation of my father's presence. For him to witness his son Johnson getting married to a remarkable woman Sharon.
Monday, October 22, 2007
Part 2+
Months, and then the blogging juices are functioning again. I'm gonna whack it short from the previous post. Went to stay at Xi Men Ting. Thats a central area filled with shops houses and eateries, closes resemblance are what you have in Bugis Village and Gaylang Serai. And small shopping buildings like the Orchard Edmeral. We stayed in a budget hotel. Didn't enjoy it as I have to share the bed with James. An effort to save money on a trip in a cheesy way its bullshit in my opinion, we can actually choose to stay shorter days and sleep in comfort. People, plan your trip well, weight who's going and what they are, yes, WHAT they are not who. Food on the streets there is bland, no spices of shorts. Oil is free flow, weather is hot and dry. Shopping for all the days, taking the mass transit train through and fro to other places I don't bother to remember. The fuzzy buzz in my head is that we went to Taipei 101, impressive structure with the surrounding infrastructure built mega sized and in style. Brought 2 items i really like by Y3. And then those clowns have to go all in fake acclaim mode by my expenditure, save those shitty hokkien phrases and manage your own finance well enough to buy rather than crooning. TV is full of political shit, celebrities life stories of failures, marriage, sex, stupidity + what have you. And there's tens of channels running biz on ghosts and haunting, mountain voodoo blah blah. There are adverts on sex phone chat too, funny how they love to use the phrase, in translation 'Big brother quick call in, your sexy cute sisters are waiting', incest anyone?
Went to Coca sine or coca zine cafe whatever the name is. The reason why I bother going to Taiwan in the first place. For market research says Abby but boo plans change lets go shopping cause I don't even know whats there to research anyway. The cafe sucks. Its chocolate drink taste like MILO, poor taiwanese lady boss went all the way to import it from Italy not knowing her close friend Malaysia put brown powder in cans ages ago. Taiwan is a nice place. nice, nothing more. Perhaps im jaded by this lion city. The above opinions are personal, offence made will not be given a fuck about.
Next the weeks followed after the trip are quite humbugged and grey.
My friends fought, I patch the small mess up and it broke again. Where's the love?
Friends play and strutter their fantasy around.
Rethought about my direction of my life and now, just want to rest more.
I wanna be blah blah blah gets overused.
Entertained lots of fools.
Request to leave prison early, got classified as 2nd class citizen.
Became a committee member of some organize place of oxymoron shitty shitty bang bang culture.
Entertainment avenues are facades.
Fools love their gap and really feel wise in their own eyes.
People snub others to gain false ego boost.
Oh yes, someone once commented my posts reflect a totally different person face to face.
Its called politeness.
I'm a nice person but I'll be a woodcock to say I still love your face when you blow ass crap on me. p.s 'you' in these sense meant anyone guilty of said act.
Went fat a little, got sick, still work, endured the 'I don't give a shit' asstitude from management.
That's all for the smelly things.
Now for the good news.
I wise up.
Learnt to take peoples' act in pinches of salt.
Know about What certain people really are.
Knew about people can be sized up and determined about their act on a 90% probability by gifted meatbags, and just yesterday, sunday, I got reminded about the Promise to me.
Thank Jesus again, and finally I got my direction again.
Don't ask, I won't tell cause its a journey travel being carried on His back.
Nuff hence said of part 2+
Went to Coca sine or coca zine cafe whatever the name is. The reason why I bother going to Taiwan in the first place. For market research says Abby but boo plans change lets go shopping cause I don't even know whats there to research anyway. The cafe sucks. Its chocolate drink taste like MILO, poor taiwanese lady boss went all the way to import it from Italy not knowing her close friend Malaysia put brown powder in cans ages ago. Taiwan is a nice place. nice, nothing more. Perhaps im jaded by this lion city. The above opinions are personal, offence made will not be given a fuck about.
Next the weeks followed after the trip are quite humbugged and grey.
My friends fought, I patch the small mess up and it broke again. Where's the love?
Friends play and strutter their fantasy around.
Rethought about my direction of my life and now, just want to rest more.
I wanna be blah blah blah gets overused.
Entertained lots of fools.
Request to leave prison early, got classified as 2nd class citizen.
Became a committee member of some organize place of oxymoron shitty shitty bang bang culture.
Entertainment avenues are facades.
Fools love their gap and really feel wise in their own eyes.
People snub others to gain false ego boost.
Oh yes, someone once commented my posts reflect a totally different person face to face.
Its called politeness.
I'm a nice person but I'll be a woodcock to say I still love your face when you blow ass crap on me. p.s 'you' in these sense meant anyone guilty of said act.
Went fat a little, got sick, still work, endured the 'I don't give a shit' asstitude from management.
That's all for the smelly things.
Now for the good news.
I wise up.
Learnt to take peoples' act in pinches of salt.
Know about What certain people really are.
Knew about people can be sized up and determined about their act on a 90% probability by gifted meatbags, and just yesterday, sunday, I got reminded about the Promise to me.
Thank Jesus again, and finally I got my direction again.
Don't ask, I won't tell cause its a journey travel being carried on His back.
Nuff hence said of part 2+
Monday, July 30, 2007
The Trip part 1
I suppose it is time for me to do myself justice to blog down my trip to Taipei, Taiwan. The last proper entry is like a month ago. Its been a month of bad after taste since I've got to work on projects that are not my interest. I'm going to write about a few things beside the trip.
Going to Taiwan was initially a plan to see how a cafe; namely Chocozing function. Since my colleague name Abby wants to head to Taipei and see for herself if its a good choice to follow the business module. Anyway I tagged along to see the world, so called as it will be my virgin trip outside of Singapore and Malaysia. the trip lasted from 21th - 27th and prior to that, It was my battalion anniversary. Its screwed-up and messy, kudos to the organisers for not being more aware and prepared for the event. I've worked on a presentation that anniversary and it turned to trash just because the organisers didn't do a test run. Wasted the efforts of me and Leon. Fucking bad feelings. And soon after that I had to rush home and pack my things for the trip. However I was not able to sleep until I rush a flyer and poster for my client, a makeover studio. Why do I rush, cause they simply give me the necessary photographs of their ugly models on the last day itself. Want to print on Saturday, demands work of Friday. Fucktards. The most stupid thing is the photos they provided for me is horrible, they did not care for the products they crunch out, even though they're a make over studio, making photographs look good. In the end I finished the job yet received a call from my client saying my work its not interesting and boring, they want flashy stuff. Whatever. I couldn't bother about them anymore, I used to, but I realise they are just shitheads wanting to make many fast money, lusting for the success of another makeover studio in Suntec. Bunch of fuckheads. They didn't realise at this era, the consumers hold power, if your product sucks , I'm just go to another service provider, being the cheapest priced studio ain't helping the sales for being a commodity of junk work.
Back to the trip. It really started very bad on 21st morning, I had to wait for my mother as she insist sending me off. Yeah I know, its her love but I cannot stand her stubborn attitude of wanting me to bring medication pills , in her words, I will get nausea, vomit, flu as I going there for the first time. Paranoia. And we both left around 11am, my flight is 1pm, check in is at 12 pm. I would feel much better if i took the taxi, but to my disappointment, the paranoid one wants to take the MRT, why? cheap fares. Along the the MRT journey she ceaselessly prattles about I shouldn't feel stress up, do my work early. prepare early, should have do this and that. Its very idiotic to dwell on the past and become part of the problem and not the solution to comfort a person. Ladies and aunties please be aware that males do not appreciate nagging, just focus the task at hand and we will feel much much happier. In the end it adds up to my extreme frustration of being late and had to follow the wishes of someone NOT able to think and act with intelligence and wisdom. Cheap fares weights more to see your son in comfort and reach the flight on time, wow, pissed me off way off the charts. In the end I got of Bedok station and flagged a taxi. She still insist on continue with the MRT ride. I reached the airport and ran to the check in counter. Got my thicket and went in to the departure hall. That point, I had to force myself to acknowledge the paranoid one is there. I couldn't be more happy to leave her. I wasn't even thinking about any friends or relative, right at that point going to Taiwan seems more of a relieve to leave problematic people behind. But one thing that lacks from the beginning to the end of the trip is excitement. I feel empty inside, not happy as one would expect going overseas for the first time.
Going to Taiwan was initially a plan to see how a cafe; namely Chocozing function. Since my colleague name Abby wants to head to Taipei and see for herself if its a good choice to follow the business module. Anyway I tagged along to see the world, so called as it will be my virgin trip outside of Singapore and Malaysia. the trip lasted from 21th - 27th and prior to that, It was my battalion anniversary. Its screwed-up and messy, kudos to the organisers for not being more aware and prepared for the event. I've worked on a presentation that anniversary and it turned to trash just because the organisers didn't do a test run. Wasted the efforts of me and Leon. Fucking bad feelings. And soon after that I had to rush home and pack my things for the trip. However I was not able to sleep until I rush a flyer and poster for my client, a makeover studio. Why do I rush, cause they simply give me the necessary photographs of their ugly models on the last day itself. Want to print on Saturday, demands work of Friday. Fucktards. The most stupid thing is the photos they provided for me is horrible, they did not care for the products they crunch out, even though they're a make over studio, making photographs look good. In the end I finished the job yet received a call from my client saying my work its not interesting and boring, they want flashy stuff. Whatever. I couldn't bother about them anymore, I used to, but I realise they are just shitheads wanting to make many fast money, lusting for the success of another makeover studio in Suntec. Bunch of fuckheads. They didn't realise at this era, the consumers hold power, if your product sucks , I'm just go to another service provider, being the cheapest priced studio ain't helping the sales for being a commodity of junk work.
Back to the trip. It really started very bad on 21st morning, I had to wait for my mother as she insist sending me off. Yeah I know, its her love but I cannot stand her stubborn attitude of wanting me to bring medication pills , in her words, I will get nausea, vomit, flu as I going there for the first time. Paranoia. And we both left around 11am, my flight is 1pm, check in is at 12 pm. I would feel much better if i took the taxi, but to my disappointment, the paranoid one wants to take the MRT, why? cheap fares. Along the the MRT journey she ceaselessly prattles about I shouldn't feel stress up, do my work early. prepare early, should have do this and that. Its very idiotic to dwell on the past and become part of the problem and not the solution to comfort a person. Ladies and aunties please be aware that males do not appreciate nagging, just focus the task at hand and we will feel much much happier. In the end it adds up to my extreme frustration of being late and had to follow the wishes of someone NOT able to think and act with intelligence and wisdom. Cheap fares weights more to see your son in comfort and reach the flight on time, wow, pissed me off way off the charts. In the end I got of Bedok station and flagged a taxi. She still insist on continue with the MRT ride. I reached the airport and ran to the check in counter. Got my thicket and went in to the departure hall. That point, I had to force myself to acknowledge the paranoid one is there. I couldn't be more happy to leave her. I wasn't even thinking about any friends or relative, right at that point going to Taiwan seems more of a relieve to leave problematic people behind. But one thing that lacks from the beginning to the end of the trip is excitement. I feel empty inside, not happy as one would expect going overseas for the first time.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
A good shit
Had diarrhoea twice this month.
Its unpleasant.
And fearful, 6 days in a row. x 2. twice the fear.
Some people quibble about love, money, politics. So long you have the health and the love ones you take for granted, every little non-consequential thing is worth its seconds of bitching.
Shitting, something so natural such as breathing, when gone wrong, makes everything grey.
When you pee blood,
When walking and turning around hurts,
When breathing is a struggle.
Treasure your health. I did, I prayed.
Today is good. I shitted a good shit. The peace and joy is such wonder.
Loving life more and more. Do you?
Its unpleasant.
And fearful, 6 days in a row. x 2. twice the fear.
Some people quibble about love, money, politics. So long you have the health and the love ones you take for granted, every little non-consequential thing is worth its seconds of bitching.
Shitting, something so natural such as breathing, when gone wrong, makes everything grey.
When you pee blood,
When walking and turning around hurts,
When breathing is a struggle.
Treasure your health. I did, I prayed.
Today is good. I shitted a good shit. The peace and joy is such wonder.
Loving life more and more. Do you?
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